Meet My RoomME

Ahh.. the summer's finally coming to an end, crazy as usual but im ready to get bac on my dean. After months of procrastinating, I finally found a place.

All to myself! All by myself! All alone?

Im an only child, so I can get kinda picky and spoiled when it comes certain things like... I hate returning to my 'space' with things arranged differently then I left them, and I can't speak to anyone for the first 10mins of returning home from work or school, and as crazy as it sounds the energy of my house has to be a certain way in order for me to not spaz on howevers around.

Carrying these frustrating burdens of sibling singality, it's obvious that I need to live by myself. I can decorate how I want to, add a plant and running water to regulate the flow of positive energy, roam "freely", invite company to roam me freely, I don't have to clean up after any mess that I didnt make, i can enjoy absolute silence when I need to, I dont have to worry about anyone else's "noises" waking me up, and I dont have to put up with any unwanted company. Now Now I know that everyone doesnt have the luxury of living on their own, so this bit may make you feel more fortunate.

Im kinda scared...

This is going to be the first time Im living alone alone. If I get scared, I wont have anyone to run to. If I get sick nobody will be there in case of an emergency. Im more vulnerable to an intruder. I won't have anyone to pass me stuff when I get too lazy to get it myself. Noone to share a late night bluntette with or even possibly a wake and bake. No one to split the bills with. No feeling of comfort from miscellaneous sounds of movement or shuffling coming simply from presence of another being...

Then I remember that Im way too selfcentered and bossy for any of that shyt to outway the joy of having my OWN shyt. :)